Student Nurse (Almost), New Mommy, Girlfriend

Almost a student nurse (hopefully), mother to a new, nosey, smart, and joyful infant, and girlfriend to a man who happens to be the father of my child, and is so much like, me but so completely different. I love him just the same though.

Monday, May 23, 2005

An Anatomy Lesson

Weeeeeeeellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll,

Ya head bone's connected to ya neck bone

Ya neck bone's connected to ya shoulder bone

Ya shoulder bone's connceted to ya arm bone

Annnnnnnndddddddddddddddddddddddd,

Ya thigh bone's connected to ya knee bone

Ya knee bone's connceted to ya femer bone (or something like that)

And that's the way it is.


Outtie2U

Sunday, May 22, 2005

Nothing Much

Nothing much to say today. I began studying for my Life Span Psyc exam, but as usual the procrastinator in me took over so here I am on the computer doing nothing. I really need to find a way to get over this and apply myself. I have had this problem all of my life. I am smart, I was in gifted while in school, and I have always gotten excellent grades; but I never studied and thus now when I need to I just can't.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Maybe while I am on the net I look for something to help, we'll see.

I am such a dreamer. I keep on dreaming about what it will be like to graduate from nursing school, and how fab my life will be after, but I just don't know how to get there. I mean, I know the basics, go to nursing school, do well, graduate, apply for a job, sit for the NCLEX, and then start saving money, paying back loans, and finally start living. That I know. But it is hard for me to apply myself to soething that is that far away. I think it is even harder for me because in the back of my mind I really doubt that it is possible. I mean, when you have grown up where I have, with the things that I had to deal with in life, having the kind of life that I yearn for isn't really feasible. But know that I am in the position to get it if I reach out, it seems as though I am pushing it away with my bad habits. I just don't know.

I am pretty much a loner. I do have old freinds from high school and stuff but I don't speak to the much anymore, because I feel like we are not on the same level. I mean I want a career and family now, and they are consumed with living the college life, filled with casual sex, parties, clubs, and getting drunk.

I think what I really need in to find a person in my town or on the net, that wants exactly what I want (nursing career, and all), and is just starting off like me. oubt if it'll happen but it's a nice thought.

WOW!!!... I just realized that a bnlog is a great idea, I can express myself and feel so relieved. I could never keep a diary because of all the writing that it would take, but typing is a snap. This is great. I know that mosat likely no one is reading, but there is a chance and hopefully someone will reply on day.

Anyway... let's move on shall we.

I just want this so bad. I need a job now because I want to move out, but now it looks like no one is hiring, but when I was sitting on my ass not doing anything everyone had a job, and wanted to hire me as soon as I sent them my resume. That is shitty. But it's life I guess. As my mother would say "Don't sweat the small stuff."

That's all for now folks.... Please remeber to tune back in for the saga that is My Life.


Outtie2U

Saturday, May 21, 2005

My First Post an Introduction

Well, I am a young mother, with a new baby, and a roller coaster ride of a relationship, with my boyfriend.

I trying to figure out how to go to nursing school online, but doesn't look like its going to fly now, but we will see, by summer's end.

I have dreams of being a nurse, working 12 hour days shifts for 3 days a week, having 4 days off, to spend with my family; going home every day in my luxury SUV to a simply beautiful house, then soaking in a whirlpool jacuzzi style tub, while have a glass of wine;putting on my silk robe, and then walking from my master bath room, into the bedroom only to find a red rose petal path to leading to my bed, and my husband (now boyfriend), knowing that I have had all of the plastic surgery that I want and I have the body of my dreams, and from there we cuddle, make love, and have a peaceful nights rest.

The next morning I awake to find breakfast in bed, and then get ready for my first of 4 off days that week. I'll spend some quality time with the kids, taking them to the park and the museum, and some family fun at home, when my hubby comes from work; then we'll drop the kids by grandma 1 or 2, and go out for a nice evening of dinner and dancing, or maybe some dinner theater.

I'm a real dreamer; can you tell???????

Ahhh, what a dream. I love it, and I am determined to have it one day soon.

On real life stuff, my life is all jumbled up but I am determined to sort through it. And, I am in the thought stages, of writing two nursing realated books.

Well that is all for now I guess.

Outtie2U